Time Stands Still

People keep saying that running away from their problems will eventually solve them. Well actually, running away from your problems means that you don’t show any effort for any resolve. No matter what it is, it wont be solved if you keep distancing yourself. No matter what happened in the past no matter what kind of problems you may face, it still happened, and don’t forget that. Where will you be in the future if you just keep running away? You eventually get the people around you involved because they become concerned about the whole picture. We have to stop being single-minded and actually expand out of our bubble, into the perspectives of others. It’s stress, it’s depression, it’s frustration, but overall, it’s being lost. We’re not perfect world, so give us a chance. Give everyone a chance.

So life, stop being selfish.

I thought you were one of the friends that I wouldn’t grow apart with.

It really fucking annoys me when you want to depend on someone, but they give you NOTHING. 

It really fucking annoys me when someone says they promise something to you, and they go ahead and BREAK IT like it was NOTHING.

It really fucking annoys me when they say they want to be my friend but their efforts are NOTHING.

Seriously, I have enough problems as it is, and I don’t need anymore fake people in my life. I went out of my way to be friends with you for a REASON. Even my feelings for you I push aside just to have you as a friend. 

I just want to be understood, but I guess not even some of you can accomplish that goal..

I remember my first glimpse of her face, 
I saw you smile, then I smiled
I was straight blown away
Mesmerized by your beauty, from your feet to your hands
How could one be so beautiful?
I don’t understand
Heaven sent, God’s gift without a doubt in my mind
Sometimes I wonder why our paths decided to collide
We started off as perfect strangers
Boy meets girl, infatuation to love
Now you’re my whole entire world
Destiny taps me on the back, saying hello
But really it was your touch
No and I’ll never let you go
Then you spoke, I never heard a voice so sweet
Heavenly, 
And from her words, man, I knew this girl was deep
Just like me
With times to worry and times to play
We’ll sit and stress over life or just burn the day away

I know fosho’ in our past life, we had to be friends
Livin’ and dyin’ together
Knowin’ that we would meet again
It’s just a blessing to have you in my life
I was destined to be with you
My privilege, so amazing, no question
And I’m knowin’, soon enough we’ll get where we’re goin’
Just thinking about it, I can feel my heart growing
Am I trippin’?
Or is it that I finally see?
I don’t know, but my heart is saying that you’re the one for me
Please believe me, I’m exactly where I wanna be
This rhyme is written from my heart to you, 
Sincerely…

Remember those days when you had a best friend of the opposite sex that you could talk to about anything, trust with everything, and be comfortable with without feeling awkward? Then they got a boyfriend or a girlfriend. Everything changes.

This day was really bad. It was able to let me reflect on my past. 

I always want to be there, but it’s kinda hard now because things are changing. I want to talk to you, but it is hard to. I can’t believe that I’ve put up with it for this long, but I’m strong enough to even do that. 

I respect relationships enough to back off, but you can’t continue talking to me like you want me to be there for you all the time, cause it sucks and it hurts, you have no idea. I just smile because I know you want me to. 

Sometimes I just want to be understood, but I don’t want to take you down in the process.